My visit to California is almost over at this time of earthquakes, tsunamis, and radioactive fallout. My heart has deepened in the knowing of the power these events hold, to affect the lives of my beloved friends who live here. Having prepared for this time of great upheaval, but accustomed to witnessing the devastation of distant lands, it is now finally hitting closer to home.
Fear is a funny thing – it can creep up on us or hit us like a wildfire raging out of control. I have watched my friends and their varied reactions to the potential repercussions of the recent disasters. Some are packing and leaving California, some are stocking up on iodine and kelp, some are adamant they will stay, some are preparing earthquake kits, and some have given very little thought that they could be impacted at all. I have watched within myself a creeping fear that can grow and subside like the tides or consume me like a tidal wave as I say my goodbyes to loved ones. I am witnessing how fear is contagious – the capacity we have to affect each other in our fear. Today, I was told by a friend that I was “committing suicide” by staying here in California for two more days. His sentiments hit me in the pit of my stomach; I sensed a shrinking in my heart as my body began spinning like a top off-center – this is what fear does.
The emotions we carry are intricately connected within the web of life. I can feel inside my energy body when serious global events happen. For instance with the Japanese tsunami, Egyptian revolution, and the Haiti Earthquake – I felt a definite shift in my energy field even before I knew consciously what was happening. Our emotional power is further evidenced by satellites that were able to measure significant fluctuations in the Earth’s electro-magnetic field right at the moment the towers were hit on September 11th. We are made of energy and our emotional selves have influence.
But how do we sit with our fears and face our rapidly changing planet? The insecurities we face are unprecedented: the magnetic poles are shifting, massive earthquakes are dramatically increasing in frequency, the arctic is melting, and our ecosystems are rapidly changing. As I was thinking of all of this on a walk today in the Berkeley hills, I became acutely aware of many overlaying realities. One, I have a part of me that deeply experiences grief, pain, anger, and fear. Two, I have a pure still center where I feel fully alive. Three, nature is beautiful perfection that supports me in finding myself and my connection to everything. There it is – the complete unpolluted truth of my whole self. When I resource my full self in this way, I am centered, focused, and experiencing my complete capacity for aliveness. And when I am solely identified with my fearful self, I become my own mini nuclear power plant in meltdown – radiating panic to the collective that we are all a part of.
One of the things I believe we are here to do as we journey through our lives is to help each other grow in our humanity and capacity to be better bearers of love in this world. When fear takes hold of us, it is a moment we are being called upon to engage our imagination in more positive creative ways. All of life needs us now to stand as one collective – breathing, meditating, dancing, singing, praying, creating, visioning… Vision us now working together outside our national boundaries. Vision our global community coming together to create a better world. Do not invest your light in fear of a world that is changing – our world needs changing! Allow, surrender, let go, find hope and peace within – like compost that nourishes planted seeds and flowers into abundant gardens. We choose in each moment to create heaven on earth. The authority we have – our true influence – is our mastery over this choice.
Anne, who is in Japan now, experiencing devastation all around her, reveals her own mastery. ”Living fully on the level of instinct, of intuition, of caring, of what is needed for survival, not just of me, but of the entire group. Other unexpected touches of beauty are first, the silence at night. No cars. And the heavens at night are scattered with stars. I usually can see about two, but now the whole sky is filled. Somehow at this time I realize from direct experience that there is indeed an enormous Cosmic evolutionary step that is occurring all over the world right at this moment. And somehow as I experience the events happening now in Japan, I can feel my heart opening very wide. My brother asked me if I felt so small because of all that is happening. I don’t. Rather, I feel as part of something happening that much larger than myself. This wave of birthing (worldwide) is hard, and yet magnificent.”
Anne has not chosen fear, she has allowed herself to be broken open and therefore to experience magnificence. We are receiving this mirror from literally all parts of our globe: the Egyptians, Tunisians, Jordanians, Wisconsinites, Libyans, and now the Japanese. Do you see the strong spirit of these people? Do you see the strong spirit of the land? We can draw upon this courage because it is officially no longer a secret – we are made of exactly the same substance!!! The truth is out, the revolution has begun, and we can no longer hide from our capacity for magnificence. Choose to summon it from inside you – your light to share with the world. As we journey through this time of The Great Unraveling, The Great Turning, we unearth the truth within us – that we are BOTH wounded and unbreakable. And just like the trees of a forest whose roots descend downward into the force of gravity to establish strength, we too connect ourselves to the unseen forces and surrender towards our collective illuminated grace. As creative and adaptable beings, we may not survive to see our visions fully lived but we are here to bear witness to the dismantling of the old and laying the groundwork for the new garden – it may not be bearing fruit as we leave this earth, but it is germinating none the less – if only in our own hearts.
